One of my housemates had some friends here in Leeds now. Had been bringing them around... They remind me of the time when I just arrived here as well... very conscious of how much they have been spending...

Had BBQ with Ruth's cell-group today and attended cell-group with them. This is indeed the first time I attend a cell group... Hmm... have quite a lot of thoughts about it... but somehow, feeling very tired now... will blog more about it next time...

Yesterday, Andrew informed me that International Ball is cancelled due to low ticket sales. I must admit that I was a little disappointed, yet also relieved. Disappointed because I have never performed in public before and now, I won't get the chance to do it... Relief because I think I am not very good at singing and may drag the whole group down.

Now, I have about one week till the exams and I am starting to feel a little stressed. It is a comfort to know that I only have to pass the exam, however, I have that I do not want to just pass the exams mentality...

With my student exchange coming to a close, subconsciously, I find myself reflecting on what I had achieved, what I have learnt, whether I have accomplished what I have set out to do...

I must admit that I am not very sure of what I had set out to accomplish (as usual of me)... I guess, I had just wanted to get myself out of NUS, to see the world, to find myself, to 'find' my passion for learning again, to research a little about the topics which I want to do for my ISM (Independent study module) and UROPS (undergraduate reseacrh opportunity in science)...

It seems that I have not done much academically... *regretful look*... I probably have no idea what is happening in group theory half the time... Somehow, I have made up my mind about what to do for my ISM and UROPS: stimulation & modelling of complex systems, and imaging using wavelets and fractals... This is actually a very vague idea as I still do not know how to do prgramming and what the hell wavelets are...

Was chatting on msn with two of my coursemates yesterday and they were telling me that they are going to do their UROPS next semester and both of them have also completed their ISMs... I have not done my ISM and do not even feel ready to do my UROPS... I wonder if I should just go ahead and register for my UROPS, as there are things in life which we can never be prepared for... But, I just feel that I should research more on the topics before proposing so that I can have a clearer and better understanding of what I will be doing...

Maybe I should just stop blogging now and go do some research for my ISM/UROPS... Gosh... I have a class in 30minutes time...

testing... tag-board, please appear...

I have always felt that there is so much that I do not know, so much that I need to learn, that I feel very stressed... I think I might have learnt better if I just focus on what I am doing at the moment... I shall try to do that from now on...

I just remember a lifeguard, Alvin, from Queenstown Swimming Complex. While I was still in GESS, doing my O levels, he, in his thirties was doing his N levels. There are times when he would ask me how to do certain Math questions and I didn't feel that he was too old to be doing his O levels... I shall try to remember him and his spirit of learning, and that no one will think that you are too old to learn, unless you are the one who think so.

Ok, everything at my blogspot site is finally falling into place, the entry appeared, the template is there... Now, I just need to get the tag-board...

Talked to Yuming (my boyfriend) on the phone this morning and he sort of reminded me that I will be flying back home in exactly one month's time... Hmm... I guess, I have never counted how many days I have before flying back, though I know that it is coming soon...

I do look foward to going home =) Yet, it seems strange that I can know a place so far away from home, so well... I might just wake up the next day after I arrived in Singapore, thinking that this whole 4 months has been a dream... Seems to be getting a little philosophical here...

Anyway, I have just finished my 2nd Philo essay. It's on "Is it a contradiction to say that God doesn't exist?". I ended up by concluding that we can never know for sure if it is a contradiction... I hope I can pass this essay... I have a better feeling about this essay than the previous one... Even after one module of Descartes and his proof of the existence of God, I still can't make up my mind about whether I believe in the existence of a supreme being...

I think I will continue to blog on both http://cailiting.easyjournal.com and www.laughloveandlive.blogspot.com

Just finished my Philo essay: Is it a contradiction to say that God doesn't exist.

So, decided to take a break and start a new blog...

testing...