Thinking about my fears... I've realised that everyone has fears and everyone has weaknesses... only God is perfect. And I've decided that there's nothing wrong in exposing my weaknesses... In exposing my weakness, others can complement me and play a part in my life...

My Fears...

I fear hanging out with people who have stronger personalities than myself... I fear getting to know them... I fear that they will see all my weaknesses... I fear having to influence them because they will most probably not be influenced by me. They will most probably think I'm not good enough for them to model...

Maybe I should try very hard to get my life in order, so that I will be good enough...

Yet, I know there will always be people who will be better than myself... What then, do I have to offer them?

It is especially worrying and scary to see people younger than me accomplishing so much more, having much better attitude than me...

Sigh... I can only try my best and know that knowledge puffs up but love builds up. Knowing that I was first attracted by Ruth (purely as a friend), not because of how good she is, but because of the way she loves... God, help me to love... teach me to love... not for the sake of looking good, but so that I can be more like you.