Just had a session with my proj sup. He said that when a student leaves his teacher to be an independent learner, the first difficulty he faces is that he's not able to discern what is really important. This is because, it has always been his teacher telling him what is important and what to focus on... He is not used to having to discern for himself...

Another thing he told me "It is not how much you do that matters, but that you take time out, to reflect, to think, of what is important in the process..."

So profound... yet it makes so much sense... the last part sounds like SL where reflection is key... Another thought came to mind... if I can facilitate my own experiences, then I can facilitate in any other circumstance...

The above sounds like God speaking to me... because it's similar to what's being prayed over me by SA, just to make sure that I truly get it...

In 2006, I want to learn to discern His voice, because I know He will tell me what are the important things...

Another part of our conversation "Though you have been taught better methods of doing things, do not rush off to do too many things, because you will retract to your old ways/methods of doing things..."

It sounds like me in the midst of doing this proj... While my sup has taught me to look at the big picture and key idea, there are many times which I fall back to looking at all the details...

It sounds like me in ministry... While I used to spend a lot more time with God, hearing from Him was not a problem, I tried to grow up in a rush, being involved in everything at once, not remembering what I've learned, not taking time to reflect what God wants me to learn from each experience...

Sounds like the story of Mary and Martha... and now I know what's the important thing to do... It will not be easy cos I tend to be lazy to do the important thing... It will not be easy cos I've to stop doing what I think I need to do (eg. sleep), and do what's important... I ask for more of Your Grace to do it, because deep down, I know that's important... And I know that I don't have to do it out of my own strength, but that He will give me the strength to do it!

*This is for my personal reference: Ultimately, it's following Jesus and loving Him. and remember that there is a cost. But I also know that I can never outgive Him.*

On a lighter note, I went to watch Narina with my mum this morning. It's amazing and I know that He wants us to reign with Him.

The character of Peter touched me because I can identify with him so well... "You will be high King over Narnia.." and Peter's reply "I'm only a boy...". "Everyone stands back, this battle belongs to Peter!"

And I know that every difficult situation is to build my confidence (in Him) and courage, so that I can become all that He has in mind for me =)

Alright, I shall try very hard not be afraid.