"If the ultimate, the hardest, cannot be asked of me; if my fellows hesitate to ask it and turn to someone else, then I know nothing of Calvary Love."-Amy Charmicael-

My Heavenly Father, My Source of Strength

I started relief teaching at PJC since 25th Jul. Will be teaching till 5th Aug. Been sleeping after midnight, around 1 or 2am, waking at at 5plus in the morning... Amazingly, I've been surviving well, more than surviving. I've been quite alert and happy (ie, not depressed, not whinny)...

I really want to thank God and praise Him, for sustaining me, for helping me live out abundant life. Before I entered the 40 days fast, I was really not sure if I could persist in fasting for such a long time... I usually have a hard time just fasting for 3 days... and today is the 28th day of fast!

I realise that as I started the fast, I forgot all about whether I could persist in fasting for 40 days. And God just came in like that, sustaining me... I realise that somehow, it's not a matter of whether I think I can or not, but that if I take the step of faith, and leave the results to God, He would come and take control.

I just pray that, in ministry, I would be able to be like that too... To enter into ministry, then forget about whether I would bear fruit, and let Him take control... and I just need to continue to spend time in His love.