My God of Miracles...

Yesterday: Sky was overcast and it was a long walk from the LRT to PJC, and I prayed that it wouldn't rain till I get to PJC. God answered my prayer.

Today: I have to fetch my grandma from JE, to National Skin Centre (NSC), then walk to TTSH to collect her referral letter, then return to NSC. After everything, I have to send her back home, go buy durians and meet my sm2s.

As usual, I dilly-dally too much, and left the house late. I really need to have the buses waiting for me at when I reach the bus stop, to make it in time for my grandma's appointment. I have to take bus 147 and then change to bus 105. I prayed, "Lord, please send me bus 147 and let 105 be behind 147 after I alight from 147!" And it happened... 147 was coming towards the bust stop as I reached it. And after I alighted from 147, 105 was directly behind it.

Went to my grandma's place, and prayed, "Dear Father, please send us an empty cab! We can't afford to wait..." And true enough, a taxi turned it, when we reached the road. We got off at NSC, I left my grandma and set off for TTSH. Have not been to NSC for a long time and have no idea where is TTSH in relation to NSC. So, I followed the road sign and walked. It's a long walk and I prayed, "God, showed me a shorter way!" And from TTSH, I saw a shorter, more direct way to NSC. Praise God!

I prayed that it would not rain today, so I could have a good durian session with my sm2s. And it did not rain!

Call it coincidences if you want, I know that they are not mere coincidences. Even though, I'm the one who dillied-dallied, I thank God that He still blessed me. It's not the prayers that are powerful in themselves, but it's the God behind the answered prayers, who is powerful.

The God Almighty, the King of kings and Lord of lords, the creator of heaven and earth, bothered about my insignificant requests. Through it all, He shows me that He answers my prayers. And if He cares to answer my little prayers, how much more, will He answer my important prayers...

It's been grace and mercy all the way... when I know that it is a privilege to be saved, it is a privilege to serve, yet when I get disappointed and discouraged in the course of serving, He's with me, to comfort me... how ironic... And I wonder, what have I done to deserve this??? And I know the answer is NOTHING, I've not done anything to deserve His Love. It's no longer about what I've done, but all about what He has done on the cross...

It's so good to have time to sit down and gather my thoughts and to write them down =) So many things have happened for the past few weeks, or rather months... or maybe I've been too slack after JC, and now I can't take a hectic life...

Just came back from Encounter last weekend. So much happened... I thank God for sustaining me. I truly had a revelation of the cross. Ministry of the Cross touched me so much and God gave me new determination to walk with Him. Pastor Lily shared about surrender, at that session. Are we ready to surrender our all to Jesus? Our career, our mate, etc... Career. Career. That, you will be what He wants you to be...

When I was young (and not a Christian yet), I always said, "God, why don't you tell me what I would be when I grow up? If only You tell me what I would be, then I wouldn't have such a hard time figuring out what I want to be (and so would find it easier to write the essay My Ambition)." But, I knew that I really meant what I said. I believed that what I would be, had already been pre-destined.

Yet now, after two seminars with pple questioning me about my goals and talking about success, I'm pretty much thrown off... They talked about making millions and I wonder if I really want to teach for the rest of my life. And I questioned, "what does success mean to me?" It is so difficult to surrender my career to God, because I know that His definition of success is different from the world's.

In my heart, I know that His ways are better than mine. Having been apart from Him and now I've found Him, life has so much more purpose. Success to me is striving to build things that will last, things I will bring to heaven. Gold and silver, I will not bring to Heaven. Oh Lord, let this life that I live, be Your life, because I know that I will have an eternity to live my life.